Nauseas Much?

HOLY BaJesus...I am so nauseas!!!!!!! I just went to Motherhood for the Preggie Pop Drops hoping that they will help!!!

That and I've been hot, really sweaty, HOT!!!! I've been waking up drenched and having to change my sheets/pjs!! GROSS!!!!!

Oh and still food aversions are in FULL swing! I usually LOVE Olive Garden, but we are here, waiting to go in for my MIL & SIL's birthday party and I just want to PUKE thinking about alllllll of the food they have...bread sticks YUCK, Salad YUCK, pasta DOUBLE YUCK!

Sooooo...at the dr.appt I will be mentioning that I am "sick" thanks to Miss.Alyssa's lovely email...and hopefully I will get a little somen'somen for these lovely feelings!

Sorry for the TMI!!!! :)

Next appointment x2

I have two appointments on Monday...One in the morning to have a consultation with the nurses...go over my history, medical history, families medical history, etc. This will be my third consultation....but I am switching doctors...sooo....I guess that is fine. I am very nervous about this switch. This doctors office is closer to my house, Dave's work, etc. And it is such a pretty hospital!!

AND then in the afternoon....we have another one...andddddd that is the infamous pap...ahahahaha....I am notttt excited about that at all...

I am not sure if my OLD doctors office *old as in we had our last appointment this past week* has sent over my records yet...so it should be a very fun day....fun fun fun....

I will keep you all updated!

OH and I am back to being sick...nauseous, food aversions, etc. WAHOO...gooooo being sick.....at least I know I am still pregnant.

Not feeling so good

I am not sure why, but I am so anxious today. :( I had a bad dream, or dreams. I also have not been nauseas. And that makes me soooo nervous.

This morning when Dave came home from work (4:30am), he woke me up...I was a litttttttle mad, because I then had a full bladder, and a bunch or stairs to go down to get to the bathroom...but anyways, I had a really bad cramp. I thought "oh no, this is it"...but there was no blood.

I know I will feel like this...but it makes me so sad. I want a normal pregnancy...one without worry.

Rude girls...ugh...hate them

So...I have known a girl for about 10ish years, and we have never been close or anything, just friendly. On facebook (fb) yesterday she posted a disgusting status saying how she would like to delete anyone who is under 30 and has a "vagina gremlin" or is pregnant with one from her friends. And how she would like to save those of us who are ruining our lives with babies and stretch marks.

WTF???? I posted that not only was I happy to no longer be her fb friend, but that I was happy with my life, career, and having children is my dream.

Long story short...she is no longer my friend, I've deleted her...I don't need to prove myself to anyone...especially such a sad person.

It's my body and I'll cry if I want to...

CRY...CRY...CRY!!! I am so sick!!! I am so beyond nauseas...nothing makes me feel any better. I just burst into tears :( Did I mention that NOTHING is making it go away!

Dave doesn't understand...but he wouldn't he's not pregnant.
The nurses still haven't called me about yesterdays ultra sound, so I shall be calling them this afternoon.

Also, Dave has taken to saying "hi" and "bye" to the baby. He's the one who is saying all the time not to get excited...but talking to my stomach and answering the phone "hello baby mama"...is proof he has his hopes up...oh and he put in his order for a girl.

So other than that...nothing new...JUST PLEASE...any advice...HELP!

AH-MA-ZING

Amazing news today folks...but lets not get our hopes up...we saw the heartbeat...there was a tiny little flicker...and the baby was measuring at 6 weeks 1 day along.

The heartbeat was at 120 beast per minute...which is where they want to see it. The sac was round, and the polyps were gone inside of my uterus...and the lining looked fine.

We have now been given a new due date of September 19th, 2010.

HOPEFULLLLLLLY things will work out for the best!

Annoyed

LONG story short....I have a professor that is horrible. Horrible as in rude, crazy, mean, adhd, crude and well...an assssssshole. So tonight he was picking on me in front of everyone...asking me what I ate for dinner....so I answered nicely...that I am not feeling well. I should have lied....I should have said McDonalds. BUT NO...he continued to ask if I was not eating because I am anorexic..etc...so I simply said...NO because I am pregnant. And most people in their first trimester feel sick...and nauseous and feel like they are going to die.

I now regret it. Now everyone knows.....when NOBODY was supposed to know. I am only friends with three people in my class on FB...but I still shut off my comments on FB so no worries in that category...I am ready to burst into tears....UGHH....

Lets just cut to the chase....

After experiencing a fun day of uterus stretching, I was able to get some sleep before Dave came home from work around 4:30am...well, before my pregnancy..from Sept-Dec I was on weight watchers, and I lost 25lbs. So I get up @ 4:30 when he comes home and walk to the bathroom...and Dave says to me "wow, your belly doesn't look chubby anymore..it looks like it's round"...REALLY...CHUBBY? Oh there is no coming back from that response...

So other than getting big at ONLY 7 weeks (7 today folks)...I am hopefully not going to be stretching for a bit...because my body hurts!!!

Monday is still our ultra sound to make sure we are doing ok...and that there is a heartbeat. And if that goes well...the next appointment will be the 1st. I am nervous though...our insurance well, sucks...and we have to pay a lot of money to get all this "extra" care...ugh...hopefully we come into some money here soon...maybe my school will come through with my tuition reimbursement payment...

Back to the GRIND

So classes resumed last night...and let me tell you...my Law School professors don't let people leave the room at all for any reason...but I was able to get my bathroom pass for the semester thanks to Baby Espo....that and they are going to avoid me...probably because I am scary to them I guess?! Or I just made it wicked awkward...no male wants to chat you up about your pregnancy.

I have 12 cases to read and brief tonight (and basically memorize just in case I get called on), not bad...but it is two hoursish of my night, AND somehow visit the doctors office for a note saying that I am exempt from my TD shot..or they will not let me back into my classes...

I am still nauseas, and exhausted...but I must trudge through. Someday all of this will be worth it! :)

Lastnight....she said....

The she...is me...and I kept saying how sick I felt! Lol! Poor Dave!! Anyways...this morning I do feel a lot better, and I have been able to eat this morning! OH...and I have been able to use the restroom...just saying...I am quite happy!!

I wanted to let everyone know how happy I am about this pregnancy, and how grateful I am. I hope that we get some good news on the 25th (we deserve it)...and we do hope that the 3rd time is the charm! LETS GO BABY ESPO!!!!

Food aversions/ Uti's/ NOT pooping

I remember all of these from the last two times...but I heard that alllll pregnancies are different, but I guess my body likes to make sure I am miserable!!! Seriously, I hateeee this part! I am grateful to be able to experience another pregnancy, but honestly...really...whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy can't it be easy?? Why do all the "other" people I know have it easy? And they don't have a problem with pooping! Either that or they just don't bitch about it!!

Any ideas/tips? I am drinking apple juice like it's my job!

He said...She said

So this is supposed to be my "pregnancy blog"...butttt I had to blog about a recent happening...we went skiing yesterday (yes, I know...dangerous...butttttt not for me...I don't fall..at all...anymore...and we got the A-OK from the doctor).

She said: Welllll I was in front of Dave, and he was obviously skiing behind me...this usually means that the person behind has to be careful of their surroundings...especially if you are behinddddd someone. I was just skiing, doing my turns, finding the best possible, safest route...when allll of a sudden out of no where...Dave summersaults into the woods...and yells at me. Again, I was in front...NOT paying attention to him...behind me...

He said: The truth must be told (I am typing this for him...and he's lying...just saying)...I'm laying in bed with neck pain due to the events of yesterday (pshhh baby...just saying again...). It all started at the top of the mountain, when I looked over at Stephanie to see which trail we going down. She pointed to the far right trail, and I always let her go in front of me, just in case if she falls, or decides to go down a different trail...because I'm a good husband (annndddd he knows I'd kick his ass if he picked a trail that was too hard). She started down the trail...and she cut me off. Next thing I know I am flapping my arms in the air to redirect myself from hitting my pregnant wife. That is all I remember. Next thing I knew, I was in the brush. And the first thing out of my wifes mouth was "you shouldn't have cut me off", I can not cut someone off if I'm behind them (yeah...this makes no sense...but he continues)..so now again...I'm laying in bed with a sprained neck (no so much buddy), and splinters from the brush (LIES)...

The end... (But we did have an amazing time)

Preparing for the worst, but WISHING for the best

So like I said....things that were making me anxious got the best of me.

My ultrasound today was either too early, or we have another etopic pregnancy. We also have a "strangely" shaped gestational sac. There was something in there....but again...it might be too early.

They took blood to see my HG level, and if they come back that I am not as far along as they thought originally then we have an ultrasound scheduled for the 25th @ 10:45 am....if not...then we have to see the next step....a D&C or naturally miscarrying the pregnancy. Dave and I both prepared ourselves for the bad news before we even went in. With all that has happened, we have to be realistic. We are preparing for the worst, but WISHING for the best.

I feel a little upset, not as much as I thought, I am holding up pretty good.

If the doctor calls us...it's the bad news....IF the nurse calls us...it's good news....so I will keep you all updated/posted with what is going on....

I do not understand what it means to have an odd shaped gsac, and they said my uterine lining was a little thick....so again, waiting to hear what this all means....AHHHH...I hate waiting!

SO wish us luck!


***UPDATE***
The nurse called....our hcg level is 5300...which is normal for someone who has an early pregnancy. I told them that I was not as far along as they thought. I know that I ovulated in the middle of the month, and they are counting from the first day of my last period. She believes that when we go back on the 25th, we will be able to see a gestational sac, a fetal pole...etc

Please keep us in your prayers....

Anxiety

With all my happiness...I am very anxious...how can I not be...

I still don't feel pregnant. But I have not gotten my period (that was the reason why we tested...it has only been a few months that it had been coming normally...and it didn't show up).

I took TWO pregnancy tests, and they were the digital ones...and both said preggo (I only do digital now..too many false positives with the line ones).

So I have the first ultra sound on Friday at 11:30, and I am nervous...(Well...the history plus not taking my prozac has that effect on me)...

WISH me LUCK!!! I will keep you all posted! :)

Ecstatically Pregnant

ec·stat·ic
(k-sttk)
adj.
1. Marked by or expressing ecstasy.
2. Being in a state of ecstasy; joyful or enraptured.

I am ecstatic, happy, joyful, blissful, cheery, content, gay, upbeat, pleased....to finally announce that I am Pregnant....

This comes as no surprise. We have been trying for two years now. We have had two losses...and seen a Reproductive doctor for the past year...

My husband and I have a great love. And I feel as though our love is perfect....and it can endure anything...but my life has been going in slow motion. I have been crushed.

BUT we got the best news this past week...we are pregnant. I am estimated to have a baby on September 8th, 2010.

My first ultrasound is on Friday at 11:30am....(Eastern Time)....and I really need good luck...I can not be sad, hurt, upset, stressed...I need some friends who can travel down this road with me...who are feeling the same anxieties I am....