I understand that everyone is entitled to their own opinion, especially about certain hot topics....especially Breastfeeding in public. But whatever happened to "if you have nothing nice to say, don't say anything at all"?
I Breastfeed, and when I did it full time, I would nurse in public. I was discreet, I wore more clothes than the average person, because with bfing comes boobs, nursing bras, tank tops and then normally a shirt.
I do not comment on the barley dressed 20, the person wearing too tight of clothing, or the teenager whose skirt is too short, so please really if you have nothing nice to say don't say anything at all. Manners, plain and simple.
My pediatrician had changed recently, and with the 15month appointment I met with a nurse practitioner.
The first thing she did was ask me how I was feeling. Good I guess? Idk! Then she asked if I was experiencing ppd? Yes, but again why are you asking me? We're here for A right? I told her I was on medication. I then said jokingly "I'm fine but my husband thinks I'm crazy", no he doesn't think I'm nuts, he gets it, but I was kidding. This is me, I joke around when conversations are leading no where or I'm uncomfortable....she then told me that I'm not perfect, my daughter wont ever live up to my standards, and I need to see a therapist. WHAT????
Then she asks about sleeping, and I explain my "no cry sleep solution" and she gave me the crazy look again. If you don't agree I DON'T FUCKING CARE! So spare me the looks, and the "I think she's crazy attitude", etc. I gave Dave the same look and he took over. I almost jumped on her! Lol! Maybe I do need a therapist.
WE WILL NOT BE GOING TO SEE THAT WACK JOB AGAIN.
But she is right on one account, I need to stop caring what other people think, so I've decided that there are a few people in my life that I know do no like me, but tolerate me because of a group, or that are nice because they "have to be", and I'm not putting in the extra efforts anymore to get them to like me. Make sense? Hope so. Because I'm worth much more than that.
December 21st will always be a hard day for Dave and I. It was our due date with our second pregnancy. The baby girl that we lost at 18 weeks.
It is hard to imagine that we would have been celebrating a 2nd Birthday today (give or take a few days). Our lives would be completely different.
But today I smiled, I read books, I kissed little stinky feet (they were not really stinky, I just tell her that they are), I cuddled, I watched "Cat in the Hat", I said "I love you" to our daughter. We would not have her if our pregnancy had been a successful one. And I know that things "happen for a reason"....(the only quote I hate to love), and I am grateful for my daughter. She is the BEST thing that has ever happened to me. I would not change anything. She is my life.
Thank you for following my blog, my vents, my rants, and my times of sadness and joy. I started blogging to talk about my pregnancies, my infertility, my losses and my gains. And today, although hard, I am happy.
Trim needs to be finished around our windows, kitchen window, attic stairs, and outside where Dave finished the siding.
Paint the big windows white.
Hang window treatments.
Us: Things are great!
A is a running machine.
She is saying so many different words now! She has been singing "go, go, go, go" and I didn't know what it was from, and then at my Mom's house the Cat in the Hat was on...and the lyrics to the theme song was "go, go, go, go, on an adventure"...so I guess she likes that song!
She is using a fork and spoon all the time. But prefers her hands.
She has a doctors appt on Friday. I changed Pediatricians...the one we had could not meet on the days we could...so same practice, different doctor.
The "No Cry Sleep Solution" has worked so far...a few days in...and we are sleeping ALL NIGHT in our own crib. I think because the teething has stopped (yes all 16 teeth are in), and we are finally over our cold (I swear it lasted 2 months with the never ending cough)...that she can sleep through the night completely. Before she would wake up from coughing and go right back down...but now...its 8-8 again!
I made another blog. One that I can just bitch on...and not have to worry about anyone who I do not want to read any of my vents!
Dave has been working overtime like a crazy man...it's great because Christmas shopping was super fun!
I am halfway done with my M.Ed.
I find out if I have to re-take my MTEL exams soon..that math one was a doosie...I am not sure when I have ever done proofs...even geometry class I sort of skipped in my mind.
So that is it...just a quick update! I am too busy painting, and writing papers to blog these days...but I do have two reviews coming soon!
It could be because it hasn't really been cold or snowy here in New England....but honestly, I can not get into the "spirit". I play Christmas music, I have decorated, I have shopped...but I am just a little bit of a "Bahumbug" lately!
I just feel like I am rushing to get things done with the house...and making sure that my classes/tests have been done....I want to be able to sit back and relax! Maybe after the annual Esposito Christmas Party this weekend I will feel better! (or a Xanax...lol)
Please tell me I am not the only one??
Oh...and here is our Christmas Picture....I am not extremely happy with it...but it was the best out of the few we took!
they were supposed to be our "Happy Turkey Day" Post
....but that is the night I made Dave move into our house!!
Here are a few!!
We have a photo-shoot on Friday at 11:40 *strange time frame*. I bought that Groupon the one from JCPenny that was $40! We have decided to not dress in our Christmas clothes...Just nice clothes...that way we can have them hanging all year round! :) I wish it was at the beach and the park like we originally wanted...but with the crazy fall we had...and with the busy winter I am surprised we have time Friday!
Is a talking machine...she is running...and singing....anddddd well...lets just say she is a VERY busy girl!
Me & Dave:
All is good in the "relationship" area. The house has been a huge stressor. But, with things coming to an end in the house area I know that we are good! We have even spoken about when we will be trying again for another baby.
Recently I had an altercation with a women inside of JoAnn Fabrics....it was about A's bedtime (she fell asleep in my arms at the store on a Saturday night at 7pm. She JUST fell asleep while I was walking around, I get it, the women thought that she should have been in bed...but A doesn't go to bed until 8-8:30 and sleeps until 8-8:30 the next day...and I am not about to let some RANDOM stranger comment about my parenting. I am not for confrontation...but HELLO...CUSTOMER SERVICE MUCH?
We are in. Hence the lack of posting. We have been there since Thanksgiving! Everything is coming along! Dave fixed the wood floors, we have painted (all except the downstairs bathroom, the beam in the kitchen, and the 6 large windows in front), we have cleaned, ordered countertops...and I might even start hanging pictures!!
We have to unpack still...I have unpacked a lot...but I didn't realize how much we had!
I am overwhelmed. I have bought three big things for A, and I have to figure out Dave now! With the expenses for the house, we have decided to just do stockings for eachother! That, and he just bought me the iphone4 (the new one, in white) that I will be getting before Xmas due to me killing my droid :( But I am excited about the new phone!
SO that is it for now....I will be posting as much as I can. I am having an issue with Comcast but I will be back ASAP!