Politics....and one (IMO) horrible politician.

Politics are corrupt.  There I said it!

But that is not what I am writing about.  Here I am talking about politics and how they get very heated when one is discussing their own beliefs with friends/colleagues, etc...this is why I do not normally share my feelings

Lately...I have been very forthcoming with my opinions about one particular Republican...he is saying horrible things about good people (because of their sexual preference...really aren't we over this yet, SERIOUSLY?) and now he is making woman feel as though they do not have any rights to pregnancy screenings {honestly...I do not know how he is so popular}. 

Pregnancy screening is important to me.  It is a personal preference.  But to me and my family it is important.  If I did not have my first trimester screening, and an Amnio we would never have known that our second pregnancy was going to fail.  We knew that giving birth to a baby and watching the baby pass would have been hard.  And then to find out that our pregnancy failed, and that I would have to deliver a baby that did not survive was even harder.  Dave and I did not "abort" our pregnancy.  While sitting at the hospital we cried.  We cried because this was a planned pregnancy.  It failed.  There was a chromosome abnormality that they could not explain.  We were sad that even after infertility treatment we still could not have a healthy normal pregnancy.  The screenings prepped us for the hard road that was ahead.  It let us have closure {I never felt like it was my fault, that I didn't do enough to have a healthy pregnancy}.  It helped us move on {not over, never over...but helped us move onward}.

With my third pregnancy we had the first trimester screening, and we passed.  But if someone had taken that option away from me I do not think we would have tried again.  And if we did not try, we would not have blessings we have now. 

We have a 25% chance of reoccurring pregnancy problems.  We want to have more children.  And for this politician to tell me that I am being selfish because I choose to do the screenings makes me want to scream.  He has never been pregnant.  He did not feel a child move inside of him, and then stop feeling that child because they did not survive.  He should not be the one to determine whether or not woman get this screening.

This is the only time I have shared my political views.   And the little I did share, I am not looking for negative feedback.  If you have nothing nice to say, please move on.   If you have insight or want to talk to me about pregnancy loss, pre-screening, or just want more information please feel free to email me: StephaEspo{@}Gmail{.}Com

Need a new book...

I read at least (at least or more) two books a week. I don't really watch all that much television and have extra time when I'm not painting and/or remodeling.

So far this year I have read close to 20 books. I am hoping to keep going.

So I have read and reread the popular Hunger Game series. Kicked it up a notch with a dirty Anne Rice reread. Read tons of free Kindle books. And now I'm looking for more suggestions. I am not against religious books or political books. Most free ones have religious undertones and that is fine.

So please send me some messages with suggestions. Here, email or twitter!!!!!!!

Someone SHOULD have told me

When I got married, I got advice from other woman who were married.  I did not get real advice.  I got things like:  Never go to bed angry.  Always separate your clothes by color.  SERIOUSLY?

What they should have said was:

• Your responsible man will loose his responsibility.  You will need to make sure to remind him of EVERYTHING.  Especially birthdays...like his moms.
• When they get a cold...they are DYING.  They can not do anything.  BUT when you are puking your guts out (and doing other unmentionables AT THE SAME TIME as your lady friend decides to visit) and holding the baby you have to do EVERYTHING.
• Allllll of a sudden dinner is "expected" to just magically show up.
• You are expected to make this said magical dinner....and should know at 11am what this dinner will be...even if you have not been home...and can not remember what is in the cabinets...
• Never put EVERYTHING into his name.  NEVER EVER.... just saying...it may have happened...not to me...(my parents went through a nasty divorce....soooooo I knew this was a bad move).
• That they can and may be equally afraid of bugs as you...again...not me...I am not afraid of bugs...neither is Dave...butttt he is afraid of snakes....
• It is okay to not want to have sex...actually it is normal....and well...most married couples don't unless they are trying to procreate...yeah....THIS WOULD HAVE BEEN HELPFUL!

I love my husband...but really...these are ONLY a FEW things that people SHOULD have told me... If I ever have to leave "advice" I will be telling the truth....THE TRUTH!  :)

Ralph Lauren Paint.... le sigh

I love the suede finish of Ralph Lauren.  BUT our local stores do not sell it anymore.  I am a bit heartbroken  and have been looking for a paint store that does sell it...other than amazon...I have not been lucky yet.

I want the suede texture...and no matter how many stores I've spoken to...none of them have (in their words) paint that can make that technique. 

So anyone have any recommendations?
Here was the bathroom that I did it to in our condo (that we have tenants in now)...
HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Day with Aunty

Arabella spent some time today with one of my BEST friends! We call her Aunty Angela (or Lala, whatever comes out...but lately it's just been "aunt"). Here are some pictures from when she was there!

Gotta love friends who have beautiful little girls! We hope they will carry on their mothers friendship!

Ex boyfriends and all that jazz

Recently I've seen a lot of people talking about their ex-whatever's...and how they are being stalked, holy moly! Craziness! These women are my friends and to hear they are being harassed is pretty unfortunate. And some of them are being stalked by their significant others Ex's....even crazier!!!!!

I don't talk to any of my ex boyfriends and if I did I guarantee I'd be civil! Why not? There is no bad blood there. And honestly it has been years...yearsssssss so again there should be no bad blood.

But that got me thinking...do any of them read my blog? My twitter and Facebook are very private. But my blog is not.

If so, I haven't written anything to be ashamed of and if they have stumbled upon it I'd hope they would have emailed me to say hi! I would! But they might not think it's ok.

I wish them all the happiness and hope they have found it in their lives. Me, I'm happy an healthy. I have the family I've always dreamed about and an almost career (may not be lawyer like I planned, but becoming a mom and choosing then to become a teacher is pretty rewarding) that I am in love with.

So that's that. I'm not opposed to Ex's being friends and if I happen to run into (highly doubt it) any I would be me! And if any read my blog I hope that they see how happy I am!

One Nap...You can SUCK IT

Unlike most "mom" bloggers....I don't just post about the "good"...I post about the BAD and the UGLY.

One nap...I hate you...you are not a friend...if I could turn you into two we would be happy once again.

A had been going to sleep at 11pm for a few nights in a row...and that was NOT working for me.  I decided to cut down the two naps to one.  The first day it was meltdown city!  Then the next and the next were all the same.  The first night she slept 7:30-7:30, then the next she slept 7:30-9:30 then UP until 10:30 and FINALLY back down until 7:20....then she slept the WHOLE NIGHT...then last night...THE WHOLE NIGHT!  DH is convinced that the one nap is not good, and that she needs two still....butttt really...reallyyyy I don't agree. 

We have aruged about it...saying that my way isnt the best way all the time...he even told me to take my "granola crunchy attitude and stick it"...bahahahahaha...doesn't he realize that I am not the only nagging wife?  Doesn't he realize that "if the wife is happy, the home is happy"? 

So he decided to give it until next Tuesday.  And if she is still a moody pants he is going back to two naps...way to be supportive...UGH....but hey...if he wants two naps, then he can do bedtime :p

I know meltdowns happen....but how long does it take to get used to one nap?  HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love this "granola crunchy" mom...bahahahahahah seriously...
XOXO,

Fuckkkkk...ahem....I mean "ahhhhhhh"

I'm so sick of painting. And dealing with a shitty contractor. Someone please come here and beat the snot out of this guy, take me for a Mani/Pedi andddddd hire someone to paint!

Xoxo,