Vacation

I am officially on Vacation until July 10th when I go back! :)

We are going to the zoo... the beach, the lake, Maine, the mountains and spending time at home! Staycation!

We're not sure where or what to do for the 4th but we have plenty of options! Maine, beach, lake, soooo much to choose!

Enjoy your weekend all!!!!

My life in an Instagram

Who doesn't love linkups?!? Here is my week/last weekend in IG photos.

1. Just Dh and I making really bad kissey faces! We are goobers. And usually take random pictures that I never post!

2. Before bed silliness.

3. A was holding my baby doll from when I was a little girl. She was my favorite basically "my precious" (cue creepy Golham voice).

4. CC and Bella sun bathing! :)Hope you enjoyed my first linkup!!!!

So what....

If I am now able to: tile, grout, paint, lay wood floors, use four different types of saws...{{I don't know the names of them other than the table saw and the skill saw (only because the names are on the saws...the others I have no idea)}}, vacuum a pool, put up a pool, build furniture, and even put up crown molding and wanes coating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm a girl but a girl who needs to get shit done!

If I let my kid have munchkins (little donuts) a few times the past week or so! You have to do what you have to do to get by!!!!

If I make crazy checklists that never get completed but then added to new lists!!

If I have a sick obsession with instagram. I don't have Facebook, I'm never on twitter. I need an outlet!

If I'm starting a new "weightloss" and AB challenge. I will be posting before pictures and stats. I was more accountable when I had someone to answer to! If you don't care then skip my posts!

If I have and will loose more in real life friends soon. Honestly I need drama free and need more me time. Less crazy more relaxing.

AND LAST BUT CERTAINLY BUT NOT LEAST instead of being super duper excited about family vaca I'm super duper excited to meet my blogging, hey tell, Skype bf Crystal very very soon!!!!!!!!!!!! But Ahhhhh I'm soooooo excited!!!!!

Insta.gram

Are any of you on IG?

If so add me!!!!!! I will have to accept you...but also I want to follow you!

Also I am on twitter too! Don't forget!!!!!

Fluff

Honestly my posts have been full or fluff lately. And I'm sorry for that.

But I'm just not sure what to write or where else to go with this blog.

I'm stuck.

I have my new blog that I've been working on. But it's not fair that I can't write what I want on my own blog.

So...
1.) if you don't like me stop reading. If you think I'm a shit show well then keep reading. At least you will be entertained.
2.) if you dislike my blog because it's about my weight loss journey...suck an egg. And stop reading.
3.) if you're a was once a real life friend who fits all of the above then stop reading!
4.) I am NOT going to be fake. This is a warning. I am going to be me. In person, while writing. And if you can't take it...I'm not sorry. I am me. I like me. I have real friends who also like me! Soooo if you can not deal...you guessed it...stop reading!

As of this week I am not hiding or holding back. I'm going to be forthcoming and let you know how I really feel. So this is your warning.

{{I know this sounds silly. But I can see your IP address as well as see "where you are reading from". I know who you are. So just leave me alone and just move on with your life}}

Random Bitch

Recent things that bother me:
1.) Carseat photos in which the child is not strapped in correctly
2.) Seeing kids NOT buckled in when driving
3.) Drivers who pull out in front of you and then don't drive!
4.) Having nightmares. Every single night!
5.) Grocery shopping! Who doesn't dislike this? It seems everyone in the store is miserable!

Recent things that make me smile:
*obviously my child...but there are other things too*
1.) Pistachio icecream!
2.) Knowing I'll see Crystal and Chloe in a few short weeks!!!!!
3.) Swimming in my own backyard!
4.) Wine!!!! Yummmmm!!!!
5.) Having a dog groomer literally two streets over so my dogs can be less stinky!!!!!! <----not going to lie...this ones a top priority!!!!!

Picture post!

We have so much going on!!!!! Here's a post full of fun filled pictures!!!!

I'll be back to blogging soon!!!

Honey Bunches of Oats

Recently I tried Honey Roasted Breakfast Cereal

The new Honey Bunches has even more taste and more texture. 

I was given a box of the original flavor, Honey Bunches of Oats Honey Roasted!  It was the perfect combination of crispy flakes and crunchy granola bunches with just a touch of honey.   I enjoyed it, my husband enjoyed it, and my toddler enjoyed it!

The sweet taste of the crispy flakes, and the crunchy bunches of granola were great!  And I did not even let my oats get soggy...they were out of the milk before they were even soft!  Bella loved the granola, and I was not fighting her eating them!!

Honey Bunches of Oats have FOUR nutritious grains—rice, wheat, oats, and corn!  This cereal is considered Heart Healthy (0g trans fat, 0g saturated fat, 0mg cholesterol per serving) with 10g of whole grain per serving Same calories per serving as Special K Original*

The cereal is available  in 14.5 oz, 18 oz, 24.5 oz, and 48 oz size!

And the flavors are: Honey Roasted, Almonds, Strawberry, Raisin Medley, Vanilla Bunches, Pecan Bunches, Cinnamon Bunches, Cinnamon Bunches, New Fruit Blends: Banana Blueberry, Peach Raspberry,  and also available Just Bunches.

* I was provided a sample of this Honey Bunches of Oats product and all opinions expressed in this post are honestly and truly mine.

Chicken Skin

What if I told you I could heal your "chicken skin". Heal. Not remove. But heal?!?! Would you love me forever?

Keratosis Pilaris (KP) is a very common skin condition often referred to as "chicken skin". If you have keratosis pilaris, you are not alone. Worldwide, keratosis pilaris affects an estimated 40 to 50% of the adult population and approximately 50 to 80% of all adolescents. Varying in degree, cases of KP can range from minimal to severe. (www.helpforkp.com).

I can help! I have this! Saw a dermatologist and can save you a trip!!!!!!!! Mine came after pregnancy. It is ugly and red.... But I've started treatment and see a huge improvement ....huge!!!!!

If you want to know how I will write up the process! Just ask me (email) :)

Update

Ok so here is little update:

A is speaking full crazy sentences. Knows some colors, can count higher than I thought at this age, knows her ABC's, loves to talk on the phone to "Chloe", plays with our neighbors nightly and is killing me daily with what I see! Seriously! Not a baby anymore!

DH is great. Just came back from his all guys Maine trip. Had a blast and even had a fish hook go through his ear! Gross!

Me...obviously still working out. Today I mentioned to a friend that the scale wasn't going down and she commented that it doesn't matter how much you weigh but how you feel. Another friend doesn't get on the scale at all but does her "workouts" to get to a size she likes. I'm in a 4! A 4!!!!!!!!!!! I love my 6's they're super comfy and not too tight (I may have jumped to a 4 too soon....but it depends on the brand) :)

I posted a comparison picture of me in April and now (tonight...Monday). I want to now tone my legs and hips. Looking for any advice in this department!!!!!

I'm happier, healthier and well getting to be me again...with some hard work!!!!

Sidetrack.

Loosing weight is hard. It takes hard work, determination, support and of course exercise and eating right!

But what happens when you eat right and exercise but have a week where alllll you want to do is eat shit?!?!

You heytell Crystal and she tells you you were fine!!! Lol!!!!

I have some really good eating days and then some really bad ones. And after those bad ones I feel guilty and "fat". It's not like I eat an entire batch of brownies but I will indulge with an Irish Dip and Irish coffee! Especially when my Mom takes me to lunch. And she's super Irish so I have to eat or it's rude, right?!?! And of course because I felt guilty I did run and hit up some #300 abs!!!

So today I'm back on track. I may have some brownies. I may drink some Sangria but I will eat clean for the most part!

Engaged

My girlie friend Heather got engaged this weekend!!! Squeeeee!!!!!!! XOXO HEATHER!!!! I am so happy for you.

Going UN Private

I haven't received any crazy emails lately. Maybe going private stopped them from harassing.

If it starts again I've already created a new blog I will be transferring to.

Tomorrow I will go UN private again.

Holy crappola

My face has shrunk. Literally. Shrunk. I asked Dave if he noticed a difference and he said I was pretty and haven't changed. Yeah ok bud. I see a huge freakin difference from then to now!!!!!

iPhone picture post

Online friends

When I first started blogging I came into a community of people who like me were normal and happy...and then I fell into the group of women like me who were dealing with infertility, and loss of pregnancy.  I am happy to say that those women are amazing!  I still love them!  I still talk to them and feel really close to them!  Hell, we've been friends LONGER than most of my IRL friends!  And even after my bitch sessions and whining on twitter/blogger they support and stay with me!   And I am now friends with not only them {XOXO you know who you are}, but a group of young women who have children...and are trying to get fit...see how much life changes? 

I feel like I am closer to some of these people than I am with actual people in the real world!  I have a few girlfriends that I am super close with, and some that talk to me daily!  BUT I miss having the ONE girlfriend who likes me for me and wants to  be my friend in real life.  Does that make sense?  The one who does dinner with her husband and kids and my husband and kids.  The one where our husbands go on hunting trips together, and we bitch and drink wine!  The one who will tell me that I need to take a shower and when my husband is right in an argument tells me so...but still hugs me!

I feel really lonely sometimes, and I shouldn't.  I have a family that loves me, friends that care about me...but I am missing that "movie" friendship...where we do silly things, say silly things...and is JUST like me.  The person in real life that shares clothes, that gossips about the friends in our circle.  Hell, I was just in a real life friend circle and was kicked out (for reasons I still don't know...and probably never will).

I was talking with my friend Cara recently about being too crazy {she likes me}.  I am a very emotional, outgoing, in your face abrasive person.  Most people do not know how to deal with me.  I have actually been asked "why are you always so happy".  I am not always happy, but I am sarcastic, and witty..and instead of being negative I try to be positive.  Instead of frowning I smile.  This may seem fake, but it is how I deal with things.  I care too much about what others think and see...

So I wanted to THANK my online friends for being there for me, when I was happy, sad, broken and well ME...and let them know how much I appreciate them!

Photo Post

Here are some photos of this weekend!!!!!!

Handle With Care

I hated this book.

Firstly because of our second pregnancy. There is not a day that doesn't go by that I don't think about it. About our baby that did not survive. Were we selfish. Were we cruel. Or were we normal. I say that everything happens for a reason and if the reason was to have A then was that reason good enough to loose the other baby? Of course I say yes...and then stop to think. Would I have loved you less, no...but with how much I love A it is hard to think about the what ifs.

Secondly the ending sucked.

This probably doesn't make sense. But this book tore me up. I love my daughter and I love the baby we lost. But I never knew that baby...and although I loved and still love her I know that I am whole heartedly in love with A. She is the reason I breathe. The reason to keep breathing.

Private

I have decided to go private for a few reasons:
1. Emails. I have been receiving emails from someone commenting about me, my family and my parenting skills.
2. Friends in real life are no longer my friends but still continue to read my blog. If you do not want to be my friend just don't. But do not also read my blog just for kicks.
3. Drama. I deleted Facebook because of it. And deleted half of twitter followers because of it.

So I am still here. I will keep posting. I won't be private forever, but for awhile.